=AmaryllisHakatri

A figment of your imagination.

Warning: Pointless, senseless rantage.

Wed May 7, 2008, 6:28 PM

Mood: Tired
Listening to: your thoughts
Reading: over your shoulder
Playing: with your mind
Drinking: your blood

Pointlessness, and a pity party.
Invite list: Me, myself, and I.

You've been warned.

I seriously think I'm going to snap, then next time Father calls my art useless. Or worthless. He doesn't approve of this, he doesn't see the point in that, I don't do enough math, why can't I improve my horrendous Chinese...

Apparently I can't do anything right. 8D Yays.

Have I ever mentioned how horribly much it aggravates me when people automatically look to me for certain things? Yes, I know it should be flattering. Yes, I know I'm being ridiculous and childish. Yes, I know I sound like a spoiled, ungrateful brat.

I don't fucking care anymore.

They're always wrong, every time, and they refuse to stfu. I think I'm going to scream the next time everyone starts saying, "Jean..." with those expectant looks on their faces. Quite often the things they look to me for are totally off...does that make any sense?

No? I didn't think so.

I guess I'm just...sick of trying to live up to people's expectations of me. I've just about stopped trying, as of late.

What the hell...is wrong with me? The simplest things seem to push me onto the verge of exploding in the last while.

-.- Wtf, Jean.

You know...I'll probably read this in a few day's time and wonder what the hell I was thinking.
But right now, well.
I just don't fucking care.

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~oblivious-life

May 7, 2008, 6:36:27 PM

lol, man, if my dad ever calls my art garbage I'll force a paper and pencil in his hands and scream at him, "DRAW!"

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Why's it so bad to be so mean?

*Apocalyptic-Visions

May 7, 2008, 6:39:33 PM

D=

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~Heruman

May 7, 2008, 7:08:06 PM

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=Suzey

May 7, 2008, 7:48:41 PM

I'm sorry. I'll lay off. I didn't know it bugged you so much...

Welcome to emo-land. Hope you have a grand old time here.

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~markavo

May 7, 2008, 9:55:13 PM

I'm sorry.

You study Chinese? Maybe I can help a little? Hmm?

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*lightsentry

May 8, 2008, 3:46:27 PM

zhen shi bu shi yi ge xiao shi. wo xiang ni de ming yao bian hao hen kuai^^

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The sound of your footsteps makes a beautiful melody.
It's like ripples spreading out on a clear lake.
I watch your solemn form retreating,
Wishing I could listen to that sound forever.
-Kotoko, 'Kirei na Senritsu' (Rough Translation)

~kommentgames

May 8, 2008, 4:28:55 PM

Part of that sounds like how I feel, I 'm sorry you feel that way...

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Don't mind all the dragon obsessiveness, that's just me.

=AmaryllisHakatri

May 8, 2008, 5:35:35 PM

It's not you, so much, you don't look to me for the wrong things...and...eh. -.- I just dunno.

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"When it's going well, it's like reaching up into heaven and pulling down fire. It's better than any dope you can buy. When it's not going well, it's much like giving birth to a baby elephant."

-David Eddings}}

=Suzey

May 8, 2008, 5:37:23 PM

Yes but.. I still do it. :< Which is wrong of me and I have to stop it. *notes to self to stop doing that*

Oh btw have you heard that you're a deer bitch? *prods your front page* I'm not quite sure what that is.. A mixture between a deer and a female dog?

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